1. To wake up free of pain and see the lights and decorations of the tree.  The "ooh's & ahh's will be of delight, not agonizing pain.

2. See the smile and twinkle in the eye of niece as she rips into a present and squeals with joy.

3. To be surrounded by family and friends, if this truly is my last Christmas I want to have vivid pictures in my mind to take with me.

4. To see that same group of family and friends enjoy themselves and prepare for a life without me.  Each has families of their own and they can not dwell on my passing.

5. For someone to take the ramblings I have written and comprise them in some readable format so that grandchildren and other generations can know something about me.

6. To have a full appetite and be able to eat all that is cooked.  Tamales & menudo are something I can only hope for right now.  Maybe Christmas brings something different.

7. I want to drink cappucino, lots of it.  Tea also.  They clean out my system, and if I am going to heaven I do not want to ask where the restroom is as soon as I get there.  I want to take care of my business here first.

8. Someone to ask what is MDS and why does it take a life without so much as a whisper.

9. If you are capable, become a blood donor.  Those 15 minutes you give have kept me alive since April 10, 2008.

10. A phone call from Methodist or MD Anderson Hospital stating that I have been accepted as a patient in their bone marrow transplant program.

This may not be the time or place for this list, but than again I may be running short on the the time thing.  I like it when people read my articles and post helpfulness votes, I hope you will.  Have a blessed Holiday.